the drama queen doesn't even invite me to her show, so why do i bother to come?

Hi, crush!

good evening~!!

it's almost the end of March, and i just started writing again ehehehe. it's still trash as always, don't expect me to come with something more :P lol

so how are you? 

i've been doing very well without you, you know~~ kkk i did a lot of things. i finally managed to come to college's sport and art week (?). it was a great experience for meet some new friends and talked about stuff and took some pics together www

I also visited some old friends in Jogja. one is my hubby <3 i slept over there for one day and two nights. we did stuff too, like gossiping other people :p watching FMA 4 comas, and private drawing-learning (?) hahaa. hubby is so kind <3 though she had an accident some times ago that made her immobile now. :( lets wish her to get well very soon, crush >/\<

bad things also happened in my life, duhhhhhh. last time when family went to somewhere, we thought that i have the house key with me, but apparently i didnt. it was rainy back then. when i came back to home, i coudnt open the front gate >.< it was lockedddd so i climbed it, but left my scooter outside. but stilllll no one was there kkk. i had feverrrr and decided to take a nap on the terrace ;A; it was cold~~ i remembered i sent you text about this and you - as always - didnt reply it www

another bad thing is when i was like... well, i kinda lost a good friends. i think of her as a drama queen. i know it's not good to be negative, you said that, but i dont know if i can change my mindset. ww. i kinda keep our gap away, and she doesnt even try to approach me. well, i've never be someone nice so it sure is impossible for having people who approach me first =') i still like her tbh. so if she reads this, i have a message for her : dont afraid of approaching me, im not a hater, feel free to come to me, im just a little bit tsundere, but this only if you still need me.congratulation for your graduation today. i always happy for your happiness and achievement.

:")

another bad thing. you still ignoring me kkkkk. i wonder when this one bad thing will be end. i miss our old good times.

cant wait for April!! what kind of life will come~? ;D

have a good day, crush!

i love you.

damn it. its 4:28 am here and i am crying over you t____t you have no idea how much i miss you, dont you?

fuck you >:"C

how are you?

hi crush! how are you?

it's 2:09 am here and i am missing you alot that im so afraid to back to sleep because you always haunt me as i try to close my eyes :|
no, its not your fault, duh. i dont blame anyone :|

guess, you dont feel the same..

3 weeks already.

am i allowed to cry? XD but dont worry my tears are not coming down.

i always hope you to be safe and sound.
rest well.
good night!

i love you.

naive

hi!
long time not write hehehehe

i wonder what youre doing right now.. XD how's life? :)

since i still dont have enough courage to write what happened these past few days, i decided just to write what i know about you. it might not be 100% true but im still gonna do it :))

anyway i keep listening to sasami's shintouatsu symphony. i kinda miss her :"D

im not going to mention your name though lol youre a taurus man c: born on 8 may 1991? heheheh
i dont really know your size, but let me guess it. you wear M to L sized t-shirt, your jeans size.... 29? XD
shoe size! i bet it's 41 or 6-7? what else... oh!! you dont drink coffee and even though you eat anything but you just stay away from eggs. you dont hate durians yet you dont like jeruk nipis in food.
what you like the most is cats.. and ciggs! you love shampoo smell also and supercell, kanahana, and other cute things and people c: but thing you hate the most is being annoyed. you hate cajuput too.
youre good at drawing, guitar, and photography. you dont really like to get out off your room.

so i think i only know those about you lol let me know you more >.< !!

oh!! i just got another thing about you!!

youre a person that very hard to deal with. a jerk. a bastard.

yet i still love you :")

take care and stay safe, crush.

to: crush

Good morning!!!

how was your day yesterday? how was your sleep? www

i slept at 8:30 ish pm last night because i got very tired after crying for 5 minutes oAo i'm getting weak lol!!
what? yes, it's all your fault for not replying to all my texts >:C fuck you! www

i finally managed my self to get a good point on last semester. my ip is 3,8 :"D ahahah i still don't believe it tbh since i didn't do my very best.
i tried to letting you know about this, i want you talk to me, but as always, you just remain silent '__' guess you got new android phone and you went bbm and wa chat on it :| well..... it's all your right. you can do anything, even without me ;A; www i'm not pretty sure about it but i think it's just unbelievable for you. YOU, without going online on bbm or wa or anything. oh yeah, you're still on ameba pigg(?) i bet www

talk to me, bastard =O= !!

and last night i helped my aunt to reserved a flight. she gave me some money \o/ www i'm gonna buy TK's new dvd! or chitoge wig? or buy some fabric for mirai costume? o_o still confused lol

and anyway, i tried to install aura kingdom, but when i patched it, my laptop seems have low memory. idk why~~~~ i should try it again later. i want to have a chara after you. Ylist~ LOL!! i will make it cute. dont worry. hahahah

i got a nice dream~ it was about you and my another guy i've been having crush on secretly since 2011 lol
i dont want to write the details //// it was so embarrassing //// www

so, please let me know about your day! and your dream also!

have a wonderful friday, crush~! it would be nice if you talk to me now ehehehh

happy valentine's day
i love you.

to: crush

Good Morning!

how was your sleep?

i had a good sleep last night. i even had another dream about you :")

you wore glasses lol sexy!! XD we went to your class, and sat next to each other c:
idk what class it was but it seemed like an english class www~ i was sleepy, and you drew me something funny :D
but something not good happened >:C suddenly the class was in flames. it was freaking hot >:""C
but as usual, you rescued me <3 lol so absurd right? XD

after class over, we went to our kids' school to pick them up hahahahah!!
they were so cute :""""3 they had a lot of homework and asked us to help them.

and, when i opened my eyes in the morning, my friend sent me her drawing of me and bos heheheh

so, mind to tell me your dream last night? what did you have?
im not sure you remember yours though, but hope it was a good dream.

have a wonderful day, crush!
i miss you a lot.

to: crush

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to: crush

Good morning !

i hope it's still morning by the time i finished this one ww

how are you?

it's been more than a week since the last time we had a proper chat www i'm perfectly having a hard time at this moment tbh. i wonder how many days you're going to shut me up. it feels like forever :(
i don't really understand, but i just can't stop expecting the reason why you remain silent to me sobsob
last time we had a chat it was about me made your idws account locked by the mod. im not saying that i blame my self for this, but since you didn't tell me the detail, i cant help but feeling uneasy. i hope we can solve this soon. this uneasiness feeling wont disappear although i try to forget it.
is it all because of that? because you wont forgive my careless? :( i don't think youre that kind of person who shut people up when they make mistake and already ask for your forgiving. but even though i keep saying that you're not that type of person,by the time goes by, the negative thoughts also keep penetrating into my stupid brain sobsob
or the other reason is, youre probably already get tired of me. i mean, you ever said that youre easy to feel bored. like what you've done to your exs when you needed your personal time.if it so, then i have nothing to worry. i just need to do my best until you talk to me again eheheheh. BUT APPARENTLY, i'm not your gf yet . that's why i still can't keep calm fuck you >:C since we're not in relationship, i dont think you have responsibility to talk to me even if you love me a lot >:"| and same thing goes to me also, damn it.

fyi anyway, i'm doing fine here. though i keep being negative, but i still can manage it. i eat a lot. i eat snacks too now. i do some exercises every morning, it's 10-15 sit up kkk, i bath 2 times in a day, i watch dramas, animes and sometimes i draw things.
you once know that i'm such a crybaby lol but now it's very hard to me to shed even just one drop of tears o____o i watched many tearjerk dramas but still not working wwww ;;A;;
and anyway, i keep training my self to draw guys, but i always end up drawing you t____________t please notice me >:"|

oh, i keep dreaming about you all night btw. with the kids as well. theyre growing up well. we did grocery shop, and playing games sometimes c: the very happy moment - in dream- was when i sent you off to work and then drove the kids to school. they were very loud lol and they asked me things about you. they love you a lot, so do i www but once again, it was just a dream yet feel so real that always makes me miss you much more in the morning. thats why i cant stop texting you a good morning thingy www sorry if you find this annoying >.<

people say that i must get rid of it soon because it will hurt me even more. you said that too back then. but how can i stop it? i mean, you re the one who asked me to stay in the first place. you gave good things in life, i've learned a lot from you. you always win my heart, how can i stop loving you? :|

crush, i always wish you a happy life and you can get it from me, like seriously. just trust me, i will bring you more happiness.
i hope you're doing fine like you always be. i hope you miss me. i hope our feelings are still mutual.

have a good day.
i love you

Sweet Vacation - Tic Tac

I currently in love with this track *v* so i made the romaji lyric wwww >3<

Sweet Vacation - Tic Tac

Hajimete kimi to atta no wa 

tokei shikake no yume no naka

Sukoshi senobi shite kiss o shita ne

Kikai no kokoro kimi no koe

doko mo sabite wa inakute sa 

Garakuta mitaina koi datta kedo 

Karakuri round world 

Nē tic tac mawari dasu jikan no sukima de 

Ima yurayura yureru omoi ni kiss o shiyou 

Maru de kimi to mitsuketa 

koware kake no tokei o 

Mou ichido tic tac tic, once again 

Yasashī yume o miru you ni 

kisetsu ga sugite ikimashita 

Futatsu no memori wa kasanatte iku 

Karakuri round world 

Nē tic tac mawari dasu jikan no sukima de 

Ima yurayura yureru omoi ni kiss o shiyou 

Maru de garakuta no you na 

bukiyou na yasashi- sa o 

Mochiyotte tic tac tic, once again 

Do you remember the memory, 

Sweet nothings jikan no rasen o koete 

Once again mou ichido I kiss you 

jikan ga nagareru aizu

Karakuri round world 

Nē tic tac mawari dasu jikan no sukima de 

Ima yurayura yureru omoi ni kiss o shiyou 

Marude kimi to mitsuketa 

koware kake no tokei o 

Mou ichido tic tac tic tac tic tac, 

mou ichido tic tac again

ASSIGNMEEEENTSSSSSS

Hi!! Good morning!!!

im doing my home assignments now wwww they want me to read a short story.
what kind of story anyway? D; i don't like reading t^t fanfiction? D; awww~

anyway for what happened last night, well i dont really know what happened though, my crush is at the state where he wont talk to me. =^= i tried to rebuild the mood but seems i failed on it LOL i cried :v

even  though i keep telling myself to make and treasure good memories instead of crying out of my own mistakes, still......... never can get rid of it soooobbbbssssssss ;;;3;;;

shimakaze? lol

i'm currently in love with this girl, Kirisaki Chitoge C:

good people like him dont talk to trash.
I've overstepped the boundaries.

D;

good morning !

my lovely friends drew me for my birthday present wwww

from  Lydia Angela a.k.a Milady <3

from Rizky Viyanriri(k) hubby <3

i actually wished for my crush got me his special drawing kkkk since he drew for his-idol-pinoy-girl LOL i demanded the same thing kkkk but i should stay humble for what he has done for me on my birthday c: thank you!

and tbh im having this uneasy feeling right now wwww how many times i said to my self that i must get rid of this disgusting habit: i wish i was prettier LOL

i get envy and jealous easily especially if a certain someone never appreciated what i have done like i had been trying to aim something, but gave some awards to pretty girls for accomplished such a small simple thing....... i cried a lot. kkkkk

every day is a beautiful day.

i think im just procrastinating lol

☆ thank you ☆

so practically yesterday was my birthday kkk

i was supposed to write yesterday but i was just too lazy kkk

thanks for the birthday greetings and wishes!
cant reply all the messages!! >A<

hope the rain will stop today :">

anyway, i want to share you a thankyou-video but my editor software is not working properly sooobbbbsssss so here's the raw video. sorry for the low quality camera >.<

thank you!!

joy and sorrow ?

everyday is a good a day ~!

so i was happy this morning because father came visit me here \o/
but suddenly felt kinda sad as i knew that my crush wouldn't be here on my birthday tomorrow :"<

should really stop expecting things D;
but must be grateful that i will be able to spend birthday with father <3 it's the best gift ever c:

thanks for coming~ :D

last night's doodle lol

Have a nice weekend anyway~!!

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i just want to say a proper new year greeting to you

many random things occurred today !! so fun !!

HWEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHE IDK TODAY WAS LIKE SO MUCH FEEEEEEEEEEELSSS LOL

first

today i rode my scooter to college.
exam finished.
prepared to settle some finances payment.
as usual, I put my bag on my scooter (anyway i call it tiffany kkk)
i rode it peacefully. and i didnt know if there was a polisi tidur(idk the english please help) and i was scratching my nose when i suddenly bumped it.
almost fell down with tiffany :"V kkk

second

i ve said it before that i always put my bag on tiffany when i ride it kkk
so i rode it with so-so speed (wth?) like 60km/h and when i turned the road, i just realized that my bag fell on the other side of the street :((

third

since i havent done my assignment yet, i was called by the lecturer --a pretty sexy lecturer--, asking me about stuff and he wanted me to submit the assignment on this Saturday.
so here is how the convo went:
me: my birthday is on this saturday!
sexy lecturer: really? what do you want to eat then? let me treat you some
me: want to have a date with me??
sexy lecturer: sure. but make sure you will finish your assignment by saturday.

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk


and here's the last one

i put this as my recently facebook status :3

"Jadi tadi di lampu merah smp 2, naik motor brenti..."

so i was riding my scooter on my way back home and stopped next to a car on the traffic lamp. the driver was smoking and the ash(?) were falling on my sweater. it turned me crazy. i kicked its door and stared on the driver. i made him feel sorry. and he gave me IDR50k LOL..


what a day ._.

i just miss my old good times but doesn't mean i regret the present

2012 - BRK13 

Moar Post LOL

kkk I'm writing again >___<

so I'm gonna tell you about how things mysteriously disappeared and appeared again in my room kkk

the first case occurred when i was in high school. it was my eraser. i really loved to draw back then. i did it manually on papers and it was like a kind of habit to draw before leave for school. and one day when i was drawing peacefully, my eraser went disappear >:"O i tried to find it. i even did some cleaning but still couldn't find it :( and i just gave up lol but suddenly when i was ready for school, i lifted my bag... and, the eraser lay there. O_O omg, kay and i thought it was just a misscleaning .__.

but things kept disappearing :( like what happened recently, when i was up from nap, i sat on my desk browsing internet, and when i saw my bed, my laptop battery that has already disappeared for such a very long time, was lying there on my bed .___.

wtf man D;

but i actually am so thankful :")

and let see whats gonna be disappear again LOL !!
hope it's not my phone, again :))

anyway, the weather is currently pretty unstable. stay warm and keep healthy :"O !

First Post ?? kkk !

So here is my first post ~ !

I actually am not really good at writing but I will try kkk since I love imagine things i think i will give a try to write it here LOL wish me luck :))

idk I might be just give up in no time.
:D

I'm currently doing something unnecessary. Well, I always do ;D