damn it. its 4:28 am here and i am crying over you t____t you have no idea how much i miss you, dont you?

fuck you >:"C

how are you?

hi crush! how are you?

it's 2:09 am here and i am missing you alot that im so afraid to back to sleep because you always haunt me as i try to close my eyes :|
no, its not your fault, duh. i dont blame anyone :|

guess, you dont feel the same..

3 weeks already.

am i allowed to cry? XD but dont worry my tears are not coming down.

i always hope you to be safe and sound.
rest well.
good night!

i love you.

naive

hi!
long time not write hehehehe

i wonder what youre doing right now.. XD how's life? :)

since i still dont have enough courage to write what happened these past few days, i decided just to write what i know about you. it might not be 100% true but im still gonna do it :))

anyway i keep listening to sasami's shintouatsu symphony. i kinda miss her :"D

im not going to mention your name though lol youre a taurus man c: born on 8 may 1991? heheheh
i dont really know your size, but let me guess it. you wear M to L sized t-shirt, your jeans size.... 29? XD
shoe size! i bet it's 41 or 6-7? what else... oh!! you dont drink coffee and even though you eat anything but you just stay away from eggs. you dont hate durians yet you dont like jeruk nipis in food.
what you like the most is cats.. and ciggs! you love shampoo smell also and supercell, kanahana, and other cute things and people c: but thing you hate the most is being annoyed. you hate cajuput too.
youre good at drawing, guitar, and photography. you dont really like to get out off your room.

so i think i only know those about you lol let me know you more >.< !!

oh!! i just got another thing about you!!

youre a person that very hard to deal with. a jerk. a bastard.

yet i still love you :")

take care and stay safe, crush.

to: crush

Good morning!!!

how was your day yesterday? how was your sleep? www

i slept at 8:30 ish pm last night because i got very tired after crying for 5 minutes oAo i'm getting weak lol!!
what? yes, it's all your fault for not replying to all my texts >:C fuck you! www

i finally managed my self to get a good point on last semester. my ip is 3,8 :"D ahahah i still don't believe it tbh since i didn't do my very best.
i tried to letting you know about this, i want you talk to me, but as always, you just remain silent '__' guess you got new android phone and you went bbm and wa chat on it :| well..... it's all your right. you can do anything, even without me ;A; www i'm not pretty sure about it but i think it's just unbelievable for you. YOU, without going online on bbm or wa or anything. oh yeah, you're still on ameba pigg(?) i bet www

talk to me, bastard =O= !!

and last night i helped my aunt to reserved a flight. she gave me some money \o/ www i'm gonna buy TK's new dvd! or chitoge wig? or buy some fabric for mirai costume? o_o still confused lol

and anyway, i tried to install aura kingdom, but when i patched it, my laptop seems have low memory. idk why~~~~ i should try it again later. i want to have a chara after you. Ylist~ LOL!! i will make it cute. dont worry. hahahah

i got a nice dream~ it was about you and my another guy i've been having crush on secretly since 2011 lol
i dont want to write the details //// it was so embarrassing //// www

so, please let me know about your day! and your dream also!

have a wonderful friday, crush~! it would be nice if you talk to me now ehehehh

happy valentine's day
i love you.

to: crush

Good Morning!

how was your sleep?

i had a good sleep last night. i even had another dream about you :")

you wore glasses lol sexy!! XD we went to your class, and sat next to each other c:
idk what class it was but it seemed like an english class www~ i was sleepy, and you drew me something funny :D
but something not good happened >:C suddenly the class was in flames. it was freaking hot >:""C
but as usual, you rescued me <3 lol so absurd right? XD

after class over, we went to our kids' school to pick them up hahahahah!!
they were so cute :""""3 they had a lot of homework and asked us to help them.

and, when i opened my eyes in the morning, my friend sent me her drawing of me and bos heheheh

so, mind to tell me your dream last night? what did you have?
im not sure you remember yours though, but hope it was a good dream.

have a wonderful day, crush!
i miss you a lot.

to: crush

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to: crush

Good morning !

i hope it's still morning by the time i finished this one ww

how are you?

it's been more than a week since the last time we had a proper chat www i'm perfectly having a hard time at this moment tbh. i wonder how many days you're going to shut me up. it feels like forever :(
i don't really understand, but i just can't stop expecting the reason why you remain silent to me sobsob
last time we had a chat it was about me made your idws account locked by the mod. im not saying that i blame my self for this, but since you didn't tell me the detail, i cant help but feeling uneasy. i hope we can solve this soon. this uneasiness feeling wont disappear although i try to forget it.
is it all because of that? because you wont forgive my careless? :( i don't think youre that kind of person who shut people up when they make mistake and already ask for your forgiving. but even though i keep saying that you're not that type of person,by the time goes by, the negative thoughts also keep penetrating into my stupid brain sobsob
or the other reason is, youre probably already get tired of me. i mean, you ever said that youre easy to feel bored. like what you've done to your exs when you needed your personal time.if it so, then i have nothing to worry. i just need to do my best until you talk to me again eheheheh. BUT APPARENTLY, i'm not your gf yet . that's why i still can't keep calm fuck you >:C since we're not in relationship, i dont think you have responsibility to talk to me even if you love me a lot >:"| and same thing goes to me also, damn it.

fyi anyway, i'm doing fine here. though i keep being negative, but i still can manage it. i eat a lot. i eat snacks too now. i do some exercises every morning, it's 10-15 sit up kkk, i bath 2 times in a day, i watch dramas, animes and sometimes i draw things.
you once know that i'm such a crybaby lol but now it's very hard to me to shed even just one drop of tears o____o i watched many tearjerk dramas but still not working wwww ;;A;;
and anyway, i keep training my self to draw guys, but i always end up drawing you t____________t please notice me >:"|

oh, i keep dreaming about you all night btw. with the kids as well. theyre growing up well. we did grocery shop, and playing games sometimes c: the very happy moment - in dream- was when i sent you off to work and then drove the kids to school. they were very loud lol and they asked me things about you. they love you a lot, so do i www but once again, it was just a dream yet feel so real that always makes me miss you much more in the morning. thats why i cant stop texting you a good morning thingy www sorry if you find this annoying >.<

people say that i must get rid of it soon because it will hurt me even more. you said that too back then. but how can i stop it? i mean, you re the one who asked me to stay in the first place. you gave good things in life, i've learned a lot from you. you always win my heart, how can i stop loving you? :|

crush, i always wish you a happy life and you can get it from me, like seriously. just trust me, i will bring you more happiness.
i hope you're doing fine like you always be. i hope you miss me. i hope our feelings are still mutual.

have a good day.
i love you