the drama queen doesn't even invite me to her show, so why do i bother to come?

Hi, crush!

good evening~!!

it's almost the end of March, and i just started writing again ehehehe. it's still trash as always, don't expect me to come with something more :P lol

so how are you? 

i've been doing very well without you, you know~~ kkk i did a lot of things. i finally managed to come to college's sport and art week (?). it was a great experience for meet some new friends and talked about stuff and took some pics together www

I also visited some old friends in Jogja. one is my hubby <3 i slept over there for one day and two nights. we did stuff too, like gossiping other people :p watching FMA 4 comas, and private drawing-learning (?) hahaa. hubby is so kind <3 though she had an accident some times ago that made her immobile now. :( lets wish her to get well very soon, crush >/\<

bad things also happened in my life, duhhhhhh. last time when family went to somewhere, we thought that i have the house key with me, but apparently i didnt. it was rainy back then. when i came back to home, i coudnt open the front gate >.< it was lockedddd so i climbed it, but left my scooter outside. but stilllll no one was there kkk. i had feverrrr and decided to take a nap on the terrace ;A; it was cold~~ i remembered i sent you text about this and you - as always - didnt reply it www

another bad thing is when i was like... well, i kinda lost a good friends. i think of her as a drama queen. i know it's not good to be negative, you said that, but i dont know if i can change my mindset. ww. i kinda keep our gap away, and she doesnt even try to approach me. well, i've never be someone nice so it sure is impossible for having people who approach me first =') i still like her tbh. so if she reads this, i have a message for her : dont afraid of approaching me, im not a hater, feel free to come to me, im just a little bit tsundere, but this only if you still need me.congratulation for your graduation today. i always happy for your happiness and achievement.

:")

another bad thing. you still ignoring me kkkkk. i wonder when this one bad thing will be end. i miss our old good times.

cant wait for April!! what kind of life will come~? ;D

have a good day, crush!

i love you.

damn it. its 4:28 am here and i am crying over you t____t you have no idea how much i miss you, dont you?

fuck you >:"C

how are you?

hi crush! how are you?

it's 2:09 am here and i am missing you alot that im so afraid to back to sleep because you always haunt me as i try to close my eyes :|
no, its not your fault, duh. i dont blame anyone :|

guess, you dont feel the same..

3 weeks already.

am i allowed to cry? XD but dont worry my tears are not coming down.

i always hope you to be safe and sound.
rest well.
good night!

i love you.

naive

hi!
long time not write hehehehe

i wonder what youre doing right now.. XD how's life? :)

since i still dont have enough courage to write what happened these past few days, i decided just to write what i know about you. it might not be 100% true but im still gonna do it :))

anyway i keep listening to sasami's shintouatsu symphony. i kinda miss her :"D

im not going to mention your name though lol youre a taurus man c: born on 8 may 1991? heheheh
i dont really know your size, but let me guess it. you wear M to L sized t-shirt, your jeans size.... 29? XD
shoe size! i bet it's 41 or 6-7? what else... oh!! you dont drink coffee and even though you eat anything but you just stay away from eggs. you dont hate durians yet you dont like jeruk nipis in food.
what you like the most is cats.. and ciggs! you love shampoo smell also and supercell, kanahana, and other cute things and people c: but thing you hate the most is being annoyed. you hate cajuput too.
youre good at drawing, guitar, and photography. you dont really like to get out off your room.

so i think i only know those about you lol let me know you more >.< !!

oh!! i just got another thing about you!!

youre a person that very hard to deal with. a jerk. a bastard.

yet i still love you :")

take care and stay safe, crush.

to: crush

Good morning!!!

how was your day yesterday? how was your sleep? www

i slept at 8:30 ish pm last night because i got very tired after crying for 5 minutes oAo i'm getting weak lol!!
what? yes, it's all your fault for not replying to all my texts >:C fuck you! www

i finally managed my self to get a good point on last semester. my ip is 3,8 :"D ahahah i still don't believe it tbh since i didn't do my very best.
i tried to letting you know about this, i want you talk to me, but as always, you just remain silent '__' guess you got new android phone and you went bbm and wa chat on it :| well..... it's all your right. you can do anything, even without me ;A; www i'm not pretty sure about it but i think it's just unbelievable for you. YOU, without going online on bbm or wa or anything. oh yeah, you're still on ameba pigg(?) i bet www

talk to me, bastard =O= !!

and last night i helped my aunt to reserved a flight. she gave me some money \o/ www i'm gonna buy TK's new dvd! or chitoge wig? or buy some fabric for mirai costume? o_o still confused lol

and anyway, i tried to install aura kingdom, but when i patched it, my laptop seems have low memory. idk why~~~~ i should try it again later. i want to have a chara after you. Ylist~ LOL!! i will make it cute. dont worry. hahahah

i got a nice dream~ it was about you and my another guy i've been having crush on secretly since 2011 lol
i dont want to write the details //// it was so embarrassing //// www

so, please let me know about your day! and your dream also!

have a wonderful friday, crush~! it would be nice if you talk to me now ehehehh

happy valentine's day
i love you.

to: crush

Good Morning!

how was your sleep?

i had a good sleep last night. i even had another dream about you :")

you wore glasses lol sexy!! XD we went to your class, and sat next to each other c:
idk what class it was but it seemed like an english class www~ i was sleepy, and you drew me something funny :D
but something not good happened >:C suddenly the class was in flames. it was freaking hot >:""C
but as usual, you rescued me <3 lol so absurd right? XD

after class over, we went to our kids' school to pick them up hahahahah!!
they were so cute :""""3 they had a lot of homework and asked us to help them.

and, when i opened my eyes in the morning, my friend sent me her drawing of me and bos heheheh

so, mind to tell me your dream last night? what did you have?
im not sure you remember yours though, but hope it was a good dream.

have a wonderful day, crush!
i miss you a lot.

to: crush

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